justme

My CHer smokes much too! He is a chronic, the past two years, there have not been even a two day break! After a gamma knife surgery, his hits have changed from 6 - 8 daily to 2 - 3. But now they are building again. He is back to about 4 daily/nightly. I used to blame it on smoking too much, but now it is hard for me to want him to quit that when he is suffering. I see also that he lights up to try and "relax" (if that's what you call it). And at least it gives him something to do with his hands instead of pounding his head, or walls and things. He will "tap" his other hand, or feet also. I want to bring up this busting stuff, but it seems because I don't have "this problem" that I don't understand. I have watched this for many years. Our kids for years wondered why I stayed with him (but they did not understanding this illness) As a supporter, I guess you learn to not take many things personally and realize, it is the "beast" he hates, that he is angry with, that he is yelling at, that leaves him impatient. I still have so much to learn, and I'm not much of an encouragement to anyone yet. But I am hoping to one day be!