This is intensely personal but I think only you guys would understand. A few days ago I thought I was getting over a cluster that has been around for a month. Suddenly at 2 am, I went for 2 and half our session where I found myself both exhausted and restlessly pacing my living room like a crazy person, trying to keep quiet and not wake up our baby. Since they generally happen at night , My wife has rarely seen me go through such a bad cluster, and I despite me explaining it all the symptoms, the thoughts of pain freeness of death and what a relief that would be (which go away thankfully after the pain subsides) and showing her Clusterbusters and countless videos. I know there is nothing she can do, but I find myself getting angry also, at the situation and also with her not being able to truly understand. The result has been a horrible argument, made worse by my fear of another looming attack, by my anxiety and fear, which is also causing our relationship to suffer. How do your spouses help you ? Can they? Or are the attacks a solitary thing that only you can bear yourself because nobody who hasn't experienced it can understand. Thank you.