Mrsgrneyedldy

Things are going pretty good so far a couple of shadows nothing real major.YAY! Found out fri. I need to have major surgery Tuesday! A little worried about the pain meds I will have to take! Anyways in the middle of cooking dinner,I'll explain my fears a bit later!

Just busted w/ last of vitamin M, does anyone kno what's the longest it's taken a chronic in a very bad cycle to get it broken? I was just courious. Anywho,I'm getting very sleepy now, let's just hope I can sleep tru the nite w/ no hits from the beast slap backs ect. Goodnite ya'all 8-)!

I'm doing okay,this is the time of year my cycle usually begins,well unfortunately when it began last year it never left. I did bust again Saturday nite! This bust was a a bit different,I seem to be getting some pretty bad slap backs,and they are hitting me really hard! I'm a survivor tho so I will make it thu! This cycle I'm sure has qualified me as chronic, and has been a pretty bad last 4 months so it's giving me a run for my money and I see being a bit hard to break! I'm determined tho! It will be broken! Sending much love n hugs!

Hey there hi their ho there! How is everybody?

Hey everyone, how is everybody good I hope! Sorry I've been away at the hospital w/ my lil guy for last 4 days; he has intractable epilepsy, so we went up there to begin the Ketogenic diet to see if that will help get better sezuire control! The Internet there was real shity! Anywho,I was able to finnally Bust again last nite! Yay! Definitely seeing results, they are slow but definite! Instead of my typical 6-8 hits in 24 I'm down to 1-3 hits, usually a lower pain level ( not always, mostly tho ) Shadows come and go now instead of seeming so constant. So yay its working slowly but surely! Thanks guys! Hope you all are well. Yay I'm home and have Internet now!

Oh Yeah it was, I'm holdin on to that and am pressin on w/ the plan!

Okay,woke last nite w/ my typical 4 hits, the pain scale was much lower than normal tho and each one easily aborted w/ O2! Dag nabit was hoping for a lil more than 12 hrs PF! Obviously must continue to Bust, accordingly! I'm still happy as hell bout the nite b4 last!Anywho hope you all are good and PF! Very busy next two days! Gatta run!

Duh,bit of a shadow that's what I was tryin to say!

Yeah I'm totally stoked! A bit of an of and on shadow earlier, drank a Rockstar and gone! Thanks everybody sending lots of love n hugs!

Okay,update! O.M.G...I actually slept a full PF night,Craziness & completly unheard of.Flyin on cloud 9 today!Jeez dont know what to do w/ myself! ;D

Going to bed now,wishing you all a PF nite! Hoping I get some z's tonite myself! Last few months have been very sleepless nights! Nite, nite!

My insurance won't cover it I'm paying cash per e tank, Don't have the money to put down and rent a welders tank starts at $200.00, I went and picked up a few today, so should be ok for a minute! Thank everyone! :

First of all I want to say thanks to all the replies! And I want to say a special thanks to you Tuckerman, Its you who's helped me w/ begining this Battle! Sending ya lots of love n hugs!

Not sure how my post ended up here! Thought I posted on my usual thread, sorry!

Okay, So I busted w/ 50 rc seeds two weeks ago about! No luck, they did not work was going to use the rest and bust again, but the pain levels I was experiencing were horrible. I couldnt take it one nite so I used imtrex! Yeah, Yeah, Yeah I kno bad girl! Anyway in the mean time I was blessed to get some Vitamin M, Continuing W/ my detox. Was able to bust last nite. Took my medicine at 7,not sure exactly how much, but it was enough!Took about 2 hours to kick in (definitly Triped but mild) Good experience! Mind you, Im very sleep deprived 3 to 4 hits a night, the same during the day! And if I try to nap during the day, my head won't let me, soon as I fall into a deep sleep.. I'm disturbed by an attack of the beast! Anyway so I got sleepy at about 11pm,last time I looked at the clock it was midnight!Woke w/ a hit at 1am level 5 easily aborted w/ the last of my O2! Back to sleep I went. 3:15 am up like a rocket outta bed level 7 quickly climbing, mind you out of 02! Went outside in the cold,paced...came back in used ice heat,somewhere along the way after reaching an easy 9 passed out again. That was unusual, usually never pass out w/ pain in progress. Woke ok, drained no umph! No shadow yet.....Guess I'll see if my head will let me nap!So are these Slapbacks? Is this normal? Am I a lost cause! Any ideas or oppinions are needed and welcomed! :-/ :'(

Somebody on here mentioned to me,licorice Root,...I also saw somewhere about ginger and chyanne pepper, Well I went to the heath food store and got some today along w/ D3,calcium w/ all the good stuff,and fish oil, I'm aware of how to take the vitamans not sure how to implement the rest. I tried finding the thread I saw it on but couldnt. An Update I'm still miserable 6 to 8 in 24..Busting soon! :-/

I was born w/ no hair,when I was 3 it was red as could be,gradually turned strawberry blonde,Now My hair color changes w/ the seasons, I get bored easy so I die it alot! Lol!

I'am struggling still! 8 hits in 24! trying everything I can while detoxing,D3,Ect.....Holding on To hope tho.

Hey everybody, I never know if I'm on the right thread, but anyway I've had 8 hits since this time last night,getting ready for number nine, it seems like each hit leaves behind this annoying residule dull headache, that makes me feel cranky! I can't believe how long this has been going on this cycle began at the end of March last year, march is right around the corner, a year of pure hell! The frequency has been extreme lately, I don't want to sleep tonight! I'm trying to keep the faith I know I need to bust again and am going too w/ the last 56 seeds I have left. I guess I'm wondering weather I shoul Order more?! Anyways I'm rambling, thanks for listening! :-[

Yeah I was takin 15mg, before detox!

Hey everybody, last nite was not better:( I went to bed at 2:30 after the beast hit at about a 5-6, woke at 4:30 w/ level 7 , again at 8:30 woke w/ damn Beast at 8-9! I'm not giving up tho! I'm shadowing now pretty bad again,started about an hour ago! I'm gonna try some d3 again,and Keep up the good fight! I thank you all for all the love n support! PEACE n LOVE and PF days someday soon! :-*

Thanks for all the Love,for that I'am truly gratefull,it's all the support that keeps me holding on to hope! So thank you all very much, I'm praying for a decent nite tonite,I'll keep you posted!

Thanks guys,sending much love to you both,and praying too!

Okay so I detoxed and busted last night 50 seeds, pretty uneventfull, yet woke at 2:30 am w/ the beast at its best level 8-9, then again at 5:30 am. Iam very discouraged.. it didn't even knock down my pain level,I was expecting a slap back, or headache today,but not to have Ch at such a high pain level! HELP! >

Okay so I detoxed and busted last night 50 seeds, pretty uneventfull, yet woke at 2:30 am w/ the beast at its best level 8-9, then again at 5:30 am. Iam very discouraged.. it didn't even knock down my pain level,I was expecting a slap back, or headache today,but not to have Ch at such a high pain level! HELP! >