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A cluster headache is ... Like being hit in the eye by your own brain at random times of the day and night. Of course, your brain is wielding a baseball bat. With nails hammered through the business end, sticking out menacingly at acute angles. Nails, which have been heated in a fireplace for hours until they are glowing red. Sure, the first time the bat makes contact, you only wince in pain for a moment and try to brush it off. After fifteen minutes, it starts to take its toll on your pain threshold. Thirty minutes in, and you want to pluck what is left of your eyeball out and soak it in ice cold water, you know, just for a refreshing break. But of course you can't. There's not enough of your eye left to pluck out. The migraine you had has long fled in terror. An hour in, and your sanity is as shredded as your face feels. Two hours in, and you're a blubbering mess. You have real bruises now from hitting your own face and from that dent in the wall, in an effort to distract yourself from the real pain. Your eye is bloodshot, your nose has been running non stop and your face looks like it is melting. Eventually though, the beating stops. You're hungry and thirsty, the attack has taken a lot out of you, but you also have no energy or desire to move. If someone would only bring you some chocolate, a coffee and a tall glass of cold water. Quietly, a voice from the depths of your mind whispers, 'post-traumatic stress attack starting in 20 seconds... 19... 18.. 17.' You have enough time for a deep breath. Maybe two. Then absolute terror grabs your soul by the throat. It shakes the very core of who you are back and forth like a rag doll, and then throws it into the far corner of the room. Rocking back and forth, body shaking from your bones to your skin, you huddle in the corner in utter terror. Every muscle cries out in fear. Tears seem to escape through the very pores in your skin and flows from your eyes like a river. You don't know when the bat will return to continue its work, but you know it will. It always does. It always will. Note: Today, I only had a brief attack, measured in seconds. It was my third, and shortest cluster attack this week. But, it managed to bring back this flashback from when they were bad. Or, perhaps a flash-forward to when they'll be bad again, for surely they will. That is their nature. Not one word above is an exaggeration, if anything, it undersells the experience. Mox

Please study those things before you call them pathetic. You are showing a bit of hard ignorance. Something that works and is legal and inexpensive is pathetic? No. It is a gift to sufferers. You evidently don't know much about the condition members of this board deal with. Lots of horrid pain? Yep, you get that. The fact that different solutions work for different people? You don't seem to grasp that part. Apology accepted. Now, please refrain from slamming other proven methods of treating CH. igdc started a valid thread about the flu and Ch. You have hijacked that thread. Is that a help for a person suffering? There are plenty of places that would be quite happy to discuss your one topic. You might try posting there.

Bee, I have removed the posts containing info not suitable for an open board. Please do not repeat those postings and videos on a General Board thread. If you have CH, we are here to help. If you have an agenda? We aren't interested.

Hey wonderful. Sounds like you're having a tough time atm. I'm not coming to the forum much at the moment, other projects taking up my time. But you're in my thoughts a lot, and I hope you have a speedy recovery. Stay strong, and it's Ok to cry. xx Mox