I've pretty much all but stopped even thinking about finding someone. The last guy I dated was also a clusterhead, but that didn't prevent him from being a liar, cheat and thief. But that was years ago.Â
It's not just being a clusterhead that gets in the way for me. Living in a very Catholic community as an out of the broom closet Witch is another red check mark next to my name.Â
It can be a slippery slope to disclose the methods by which I, as Buster, manage my condition. Should the relationship end badly, one call to the police could end an otherwise squeeky clean background.Â
Yeah... I really don't think the risk is worth it.Â
I've been going it pretty much alone since my divorce over 18 years ago. Sometimes I think it would be nice to have a special man in my life to share the good times as well as the burdens of life with.  I admire Brew and Wench's marriage so much, and sometime feel the disappointment of not having ever found that life long partnership with someone. But I've weathered the ups and downs of the last 18 years with as much grace and strength as a human can. I've survived a brutal assault, nearly becoming homeless after losing my job due to ch back in 2004, and several failed attempts at relationships.
That said, I'm not "looking" for a relationship. If it happens it happens. If not, I've gotten pretty good at being alone.Â