does anyone know what happened to b.g. ?

[didgens]

i was following his busting attempts .. then he just disappeard after his last attempt.

[b.g.]

I'm still alive ..... barely

I sneak in from time to time to see if there is any new "latest and greatest" info floating around.  My apologies for not posting more often, but I just can't do it.

I am not having a good time in life at all.  I know the old saying "misery loves company" is probably true .... but I wouldn't bestow this misery on anybody .... fellow sufferer or not.

I have tried everything within reason.  I am exploring the occipital stimulation right now.

I know that it has been awhile, and I apologize for not remembering exactly where I was at in the busting process last time I posted but I think I had eaten the seeds a couple times and was just starting to cultivate mushrooms.  Long story short .... the seeds never really did much for me no matter how many I ate.  I got more than one tummy ache, but that was about it.  The shrooms were my #1 method in the past year.  I had some great tips and I was successful in my first attempt (BRF cakes in a shotgun chamber).  First strain was the basic "B+".  I had a couple great flushes and I was off and running.  The first time I ate, I was apprehensive to say the least and I only ate a couple grams. (I don't have my notes right in front of me so I will get my numbers as close as memory provides).  I didn't have an attack while experiencing the mild effects of only a couple of grams, but I had one the next day.  So I went a big stronger on round 2.  I believe it was 3.5 grams.  Pretty much the same result.  So I waited a few days to be 100% positive that I had everything flushed out of my system and ate 6 grams.  That was fun, and I went 3 days without an attack.  At that time, 3 days was unheard of for me.  I had an attack on the 4th day and decided it was time for a maintenance dose.  I went for a smaller dose (2-3 grams) and within a couple days I had another attack.  This went on for a few weeks.  Testing dosages, length of time between dosages, and time between attacks.  I kept a spotless log of all this by the way .... and I highly recommend anyone trying the method to do the same.  Eventually a pattern will form.  Anyways, after about a month I had eaten a BOATLOAD of shrooms but still wasn't able to go longer than 3-4 days without an attack.  I had read somewhere about the "P-E-N-I-S Envy" strain and grew those next.  They were much stronger.  I ate 4-5 grams of those and could go a week without an attack.  So I did that for awhile and life was pretty good I suppose.

Then the wife filed for divorce, I had to move out of the house, and there went the grow.  I wouldn't even know where to buy them off the street and I definitely couldn't afford it.  Where I am living at the moment doesn't allow me to grow without putting other people besides just myself at risk ..... that's a bummer.

So of course the attacks came back full swing.  Maybe it was the change in seasons, maybe the stress from the divorce, losing my job, losing my health insurance .... blah blah .... who knows... but the devil came back with a vengence.  I hadn't taken any verapamil or depakote in almost a year and I had a medicine cabinet full of the stuff so I just made up my own dosages and went to town.  I was eating verapamil like corn nuts.  No go.  I quickly just fell back into that lethargic, weight gaining clone of myself that probably cost me my marriage in the first place.  So I quit the pharms again. 

I have visited Dr. Tepper (Cleveland Clinic) a few times over the past year just to check in and keep him up to speed on things, but for now I am living on o2 and 4-5 rockstars a day.  And the occasional Imitrex shot...... right back where I started.

Sorry for being so long and drawn out  :-/

[ThatHurtsMyHead]

BG,

Sorry to hear you've had such a bad go of it.  Sending you some good vibes that things will get better for you.

PFW,

Jeff