Hi Jeff,
Glad to hear from you, just wanted to let you know you're not alone. I don't personally have experience with the HBWR seeds myself, but I do know first hand how fast a cycle can be broken with the use of psychedellics. As far as worrying about drug test I don't think you have much to fear as the test to find the psychedellics being talked about on this forum are very expensive and are only effective within a few hours of ingestion, of course I am talking about the use of these substances and not abusing them. My friend and many of these people are willing to do whatever it takes to get beyond this pain, suicide included, the only difference is one alternative gives us back a quality of life that can't be matched by the pharmaceutical companies half a$$ed remedies. What you're seeking is available just not from a doctor but that does not take the validity of what it is capable of doing away. I hope to see you around the boards more and if there is anything I can help you with please don't hesitate to PM me.
Sincerely,
LL