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I think I have read here that regular meds for CH (verapamil, lithium, triptans...) actually extend the cycle. Not sure, but what I know is that the decision to stop my medication on Saturday was the best decision I could take. Going to bed last night, I was really afraid it would be a terrible night with many visits from the beast, as I had a strong shadow. Well I slept 8 hours straight and woke feeling human again. A clear shadow appeared minutes after I was up and remains, but I feel much, much better than the horrible state I was in last week. Maybe my cycle was fading out. I'm clearly still in a cycle for I have a strong shadow still, but historically, when my cycle fades out, I have this shadow and maybe small hits, but no more big hits. But if I had remained on Verapamil and lithium, I'm not sure I would have known. This cycle would have lasted just 4 weeks... it's usually at least 6 weeks, usually 8, but I've had 3 weeks cycles in the past. But I really wonder if going trough the very bad effects of Verapamil and lithium is worth it. I lived so long with the beast without any meds that I got used to it and I think I rather that... at least with no meds, I can function somewhat in the daytime, but last week, I could barely walk to the kitchen to get me a coffee. OK, just checked my heart beat: still low (56), so I guess the last Verapamil dose I took last night still has an effect. I was reading about lithium last night and I understood why I was feeling so weak... muscle pain, feeling weak... I won't touch that stuff ever anymore. I will get mushrooms and probably LSD either today or tomorrow. I'll see then if that's needed still. I might not be busting after all, but I'll just keep that for the next cycle. I'll see and report back about it all.

I had read somewhere I had to stop all other meds before busting. I thought there was a clear page about this, but if there is, I can't find it. To make a long story short, I decided to turn to busting the other day. I didn't yet get my hands on any shrooms or LSD, but I'm still very confident I will very soon, hopefully LSD. Meanwhile, I started detoxing from my pills. I was on 720 mg Verapamil and 900 mg of lithium. This morning I took 120mg Verapamil and I will take my last 300mg of lithium later tonight, along with another 120mg Verapamil. So tomorrow, Monday, I was planing to take only 120mg Verapamil in the morning, and that will do it for any meds I'm taking. Do I have to wait 5 days starting Tuesday for busting? OMG, that promises to be a very long 5 days. Note: even though I had a clear shadow all day and even though I fear a visit of the beast tonight, I must say I already feel much better. It's as if someone had opened the door of a cell I was locked in. These meds are... these doctors are... ok, ok, let's not get carried away Thanks in advance everyone :-)

I must say that, for a non-native English speaker (French) like me, these boards are sometimes awfully difficult to decode. So many shorts... or words relating to things or concepts I never heard of before. [smiley=huh.gif]  May I ask what is BOL ? :-)