Welcome, Ed', and sorry you have to be here. It's been rough for you, but it is going to get better. With people like spiny on your side, it has to, no way it won't. As spiny says, please tell us a little more about what you are doing now to treat/try to treat your CH. It would be best, as spiny says, for you to start a new thread, preferably in one of the more private areas, such as "Theory and Implementation." To start a new thread, click on that category from the General area, and at the top and the bottom right side of the board you will see a tab that says "Start A New Topic."
To answer the question you asked elsewhere, "MM" is "magic mushrooms," or mushrooms containing psilocybin, which you mention in your first post. As you say, those can be hard to get your hands on in the short run. But there are other substances you can use for "busting" that are easier to get -- legal to buy and possess -- and there are many other things you can do, such as the vitamin D3 regimen and optimizing your oxygen system, that will also make a big difference for you.
So, our new friend, let's get started making things better for you!