Potato-dude that is some serious heavy dialog right there, not something a youngster should be worrying about yet here we all are. I'm proud of ya, takes nuggets to put that out there... impressive. I am pain-med free since I'm an addict, so when they hit... I do it the hard way. Every CH I get past just makes me stronger, now I yell at them "BRING IT FOOOL"! So, do the homework, get the O2 with the right mask (see my thread for the deets) and keep them from coming. When they do show up like a fart in an elevator... Keep that drive, make cluster's your little beyoch and embrace the suck my friend... and you will go far. Reeeeally good sense of humor also helps a bunch too.
If all that fails, just look at this and laugh your butt off...