scottr1966 Posted April 11, 2012 Posted April 11, 2012 Hey folks, It's been a while so I thought I would pop up through the floor and give ya'll a shout out. I hope all of you are doing well and keeping the beast at bay with your sacred medicines I have not browsed the board so I really don't know what's up with everybody. My HA is pretty much under control thanks to Cymbalta. That is the great news. The other great news is that I started a fantastic new job March 2nd and I recently drove an entry level luxury sedan off the lot....Lexus IS 250. Ha ha...hope there is no class warfare here. I worked hard for this little reward ;D Finally, the BEST news is that my daughter, Cassidy, had the ostomy bag taken down in February and she is doing great! The wife is doing well also. The only problem is that I am still suffering the effects of all the drugs I recently took. In particular, Ativan, a benzodiazepine. Very, very evil shit with very long lasting withdrawals. I am over 70 days off of it and I still have tinnitus and body ache/fatigue. It sucks large but I am better off than many others. I joined a benzo wd support group and learned a lot. I had no idea it would do this to me. Neither did my pain specialist...big surprise uh? Here is a brief history: Chronic nerve pain in head since Nov 2009 due to shingles episode. Left me with Post Herpetic Neuralgia. Addictive drugs not taken in earnest until Aug 18 2011. Took Hydrocodone from Aug 18 2011 - Oct 9 2011. Began taper Oct 10. HC = Hydrocodone TD = Tramadol (non-addictive synthetic opiate - right!) AV = Ativan 120mg HC x 5 days 60mg HC x 5 days 30mg HC x 1 day (too fast - dosed up) 55mg HC x 4 days (then went mad) 100mg TD x 3 days (also began 2mg AV per nite) Continued TD 100-400mg per day along w/ AV for 2-1/2 weeks Last week of TD did quick taper. Took last dose TD on Nov 4. Continued AV thru Jan 27. Was having interdose wd from AV but did not know. Quic 10 day taper: 1mg AV x 5 days .5mg AV x 5 days Last dose Jan 27 Good thing is I am benzo free and pain med free. Now if I can get to that finish line where complete healing lies. I will get there. Later gators, Scott Quote
blueballs Posted April 11, 2012 Posted April 11, 2012 Benzo's are the mostest addictive..good your off'em. Xanax for 3 years so I can relate. Hydro's and trammy's are also very hook easy. Spin the wheels off that Lexus. bb Quote
scottr1966 Posted April 11, 2012 Author Posted April 11, 2012 Right on blueballs. Nice user name! To be honest, I would trade 3 weeks of opiate wd's over this protracted Benzo wd. The hardest part is accepting it. Accepting that I am going to feel his way for a while longer. But knowing that I am healing every day. Quote
blueballs Posted April 12, 2012 Posted April 12, 2012 Hang tough it will go away. Very slowly though...I still love the benzo's....lol... too much, wont touch em. Alcohol free since 92 as well. When clusterheads do something we do it well. ;D bb Quote
scottr1966 Posted April 12, 2012 Author Posted April 12, 2012 I'm glad I did not love them. Thanks buddy. Scott Quote
Pixie-elf Posted April 13, 2012 Posted April 13, 2012 Glad to hear that you're doing well and about your daughter too! That's wonderful! I'd had you on my mind/was wondering how you were doing lately! Pfft, you deserve that Lexus. You've been through a shitstorm. Your whole family has been. Congrats! Mystina Quote
scottr1966 Posted April 13, 2012 Author Posted April 13, 2012 Awesome to hear from you Mystina. It's just like hooking up with old friends. Thanks for thinking of me and thanks for the comments. I hope you are doing well! So nice of you. Best, Scott Quote
tingeling Posted April 20, 2012 Posted April 20, 2012 Scott!!! How nice to read in this!! So happy for you. You really deserve this Be well Quote
kymera_gr7 Posted April 20, 2012 Posted April 20, 2012 Good to hear you are detoxing well, and that all is good for you sir! All my hopes Quote
scottr1966 Posted April 21, 2012 Author Posted April 21, 2012 Hey Ting!!! Great to hear from you. Yes I am still slugging thru it. Hope you guys are doing well. Thanks for the comments! Scott Quote
1961mom Posted April 23, 2012 Posted April 23, 2012 Hi Scott~ Very nice to see a post/update and have it be one where you're head is clearing! What a long road of twists & turns! Far better to be driving your new Lexus on a paved road than the BS you've had to go through on the proverbial road of recovery Merging off of the benzo's sounds like the best exit ramp and I'm thrilled to hear from you! Cindy Quote
scottr1966 Posted April 23, 2012 Author Posted April 23, 2012 Thanks Cindy! So great to hear from you! Hope you and your son are well. Scott Quote
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