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Hi Jonathan Thank you for your reply. I agree with you take on this situation. Familiar with the ever so popular slapbacks. Just found it strange that if it was a slap back, it occurred immediately as soon as the drip was turned off. Instantly is a more better word I guess. Given my experience with slapbacks when using MMS , It took almost 20 mins and more to occur. In addition to this, I was anxious before the treatment and since a had a one hour drive to the clinic in pissing rain, my car broke down just as I got onto the interchange. Luckily I did have a return driver with me, so we somehow managed to turn back. And use my old 1989 Ford V6 which was sitting in the garage. Lol. Surprisingly it got us there and back as I never used it so far before and given the weather, I was even more anxious. Temperamental wise, I found that I took ten or more steps backwards that evening after infusion. Even though I didn't get any attacks since. I know Ketamine works over time and is not proven to stop depression completely. I guess in essence it can aid in managing it at a cost and once you stop, you go back to square one. Especially for a ch patient. The money was a stretch to have this done but I'm am glad I had the opportunity of at least trying it. I would recommend anyone who can, to try atleast one session. You have no idea how beautiful your mind is. It's 7.47am here in SA now. Just woke up. Realised I had a full night with occasional breaks in sleep but not for CHS. Just intermittent sleep breaks. I guess it's an habit now. However, no side effects or anything out of the ordinary with me after this one session. I hear what you saying. I appreciate your reply. Go well and allthe best. ❄️

Been awhile since I have said hi. I went ch free for 8 months. Then bam! They are back. Went 5 years 3 or more ch a day with no break. 8 month break made me think I was cured. Wrong! Busted 2 times this last 10 days, feeling much better. Busting again soon. Not suicidal. A huge bonus. Found I am very fortunate that I sold my guns. Hmmmm. Hope all have a pain free day. Loves from Montana.

Good day Update: I had my first Ketamine Infusion done this morning at 8am. It was a 40min infusion. I really cannot describe it although I will try. It eased in via an IV and I slowly found myself inside my mind somehow. It was like nothing mattered. As if all you needed was imagination even if you couldn't see. I found myself creating whatever I wanted in my endless mind. It felt so good. Everything became so clear. Ultimate serenity. Calm. I never knew that my mind was so capable of anything I desired. Negative part: Even though I suspected my cycle of starting last week with a few attacks, I didn't get any attacks since Tuesday. However, as soon as they stopped the drip of ketamine, I instantly had an attack, however, I asked the Dr to be prepared with O2 incase of this happening. Which he was. Aborted the attack in 10mins. But both him and I found that strange that it triggered the attack the moment the drip was stopped. So from my experience previously with antidepressants or and kind of seratonin inhibitors, I found that those brought on a cycle. Although Ketamine is part anaesthesia, I did warn him about increasing seratonin and the adverse affects.. still I took the leap. So in essence, my personal experience with Ketamine was pleasurable until the CH showed up. Which means that I will not pursue further treatment of ketamine. Unfortunately, this just gives me another reason to hate CHs as I feel this treatment is beneficial to everyone one earth. (In accordance to their personality and perseption of course.) A small percentage may feel a sense of no control of their inner being and that could lead to paranoia. Yet I am like that and this didn't happen to me. So it could be that he adjusted the dosage to suite my weight. I received 40mg as I am 63kgs. This is my personal experience and as promised, I have updated and hope it may help someone who is wondering what to expect. Like I said though, everyone is different and may or may not have the experience I had. So this is another treatment I crossed off my list. I obviously didn't do this to stop CH. I did it to cope with anticipation of CH cycles and for depression, anxiety and to deal with my suicidal thoughts and past attempts. Thanks for reading and pain free wishes. Back to the drawing board and going the D3 which Spiny is helping me with and I appreciate it.