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I always find at about 3-4am, alone, dark, quiet rocking and biting my tongue to try and not wake anyone, to be the loneliest hour. Without the dark/black/gallows humor might not have made it this far. I have help from family and while the is freaking amazing, the depth of the pain is really isolating because it is basically unimaginable to anyone who has not experienced it. I tend to try and blast music or force myself to play something, if it allows me, to try and split my focus. Adhd is kinda a blessing in those cases if I can manage to grab my hyperfocus with something, it can in essence put me in a fugue state and helps to ride out the hellstorm.

Just checking to see if I'm the only one. After a cluster headache, I get a small bonus of an endorphin (or feels like) high. I just assumed it was due to natural endorphins release in response to pain, and since cluster headaches leave as quickly as they come on, I get a short... "high". I was wondering if anyone else experiences these? Of course this could be a completely psychosomatic response to the headaches. ie: NOT being in the middle of a headache is SOOOO nice compared to being in one, it seems heavenly. Just wondering