I have been there, I had the talk with my wife. Thank god things changed. Today I am still suffering with migraines and Clusters but have gotten peace within my self, I no longer prey every night that I will die and end this! Its a tough life living with extreme pain and having no controll over it. I have learned to love the good days and plow through the bad days. I can say that life is better when you love life rather than hate life constantly praying for death. I know that this is more like rambling but I hope you can find some peace within. Hang in there.