bubblesup Posted July 22, 2013 Share Posted July 22, 2013 Me today I had 4 1/2 months well managed CH. I became very emotional about issues shelved over the years of pain. It all came bubbling up. I put a gun to my head pulled hammer and trigger. The gun jammed. Two days later got in fight with Son who nearly strangled me to death. Two days later went voluntarily to a lock down psych unit. The Hospital that treats suicide knew nothing absolutely nothing about CH. I refused their meds they told me I was there over guilt. I could handle that. The psych Doctor asked me what was my biggest stress in my life. I told him give me a minute to think about it. Then I told him being at the hospital because it is bad on my CH PTSD. they could not provide me with the D3 regiment. When I asked for high flow o2 the med doc said their tanks were only 6 lpm not true but he wrote only for 6. Because of the meds they give out they have to check on everyone every 15 min. during the night I told them the lack of sleep was triggering my suicide headaches. They would not even ask me more about my headaches. The first morning I was having shadows I got a tank and mask had no bag. The staff said the tank would not go above 6 I asked then what does the 25 mean. They answered I don't know. I turned the valve up put the hose to my mouth they told me go ahead knock your self out. Shadows went away. I continued to get no sleep and woke up with a 4kip the next day. In pain and worried because they had no understanding I demanded 02 they brought me a tank and the nose thing. I told them that would not work. I turned my head and banged my head on the wall. I told the staff that sure felt better. I got the tank and turned it up to 25 and it became a physical fight for me to have the tank and the level. The staff told me they would lose their jobs. if they do different then the written order. So I asked does that mean the person who helped me yesterday are going to be fired? No response. I finally took control of the tank. Asked for second tank and was denied. And it became a party for them they had about 10 people all saying i understand your pain and that just pissed me off more. Then they wanted to calm me down with adavan and wanted to hold me down for the shot. I told them to get their hands off of me. The one with the shot said I don't give people in your situation shot without being restrained. I responded then don't give it to me. They stop trying to restrain me and gave me the shot. i had to fight with them for me to talk to my wife. When I did I told her the situation and she then told them your staff does not feel safe and he is not safe so i will be picking him up. the social worker told my wife it does not work that way and she told well it does now. mind you my wife had just two weeks before had major oral surgery, 16 teeth pulled five implant and complete dentures. The doctor came in and spoke to me so your wife is picking you up I said yes she is and had proceeded to do his paperwork to release me in less than 72 hours and their was not discussion about the mornings happening. Ok that was quit the mess. I get out in the shortest time ever they tell me. needless to say I had told the doctor the day before all my home processes. After being out I remember Larry Schor and call him he puts me in contact with someone here in my state. Now I am undergoing nero feed back. And thing are getting much better. Oh I forgot as soon as I got out having had the shadow took vit m at i much higher dose and was definitely a happy camper even got spiritual and had time with my brother who is no longer with us. nothing like walking out of a lock down unit in to a great trip. Life is good thanks for listening and looking forward to Chicago Pat Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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