BoscoPiko

Woo hoo got a pick to upload (I think)

Hi to everyone on here I just wanted to express my thanks to everyone that kept me afloat for my last 3 month cycle. It was a hard one and longer then I've ever had to endure . I really don't quite know how to properly thank everyone. I haven't had spikes or the devil visit me in 2 and a half weeks so I dont want to jinks myself but I think and pray I will be in the clear for a bit. I believe it was @spinythat said to me life happend between the clusters and I have had a few days of life. Road my horse.. and am now at my retirement home that I haven't been able to visit in months.. a little life is worth living for!!! I want to send picks but the site keeps telling a different size so maybe later. Thank you all.

I don't believe the anxiety is unwarranted. I still have it after almost three years of CH. I never get a long enough break to ever stop thinking about my head, if or when I'll get attacked. It's very hard to shut off. We as humans are not programed to deal with the level of pain CH causes. In many ways its like a torture tactic that I'm sure the military wishes they had access to as most would roll over with a quickness from the pain. Give him room and try to accept the level of pain. It kills personality, drive and all in its wake at the start. He will come around and accept help, profalactics, and advise on the more homeopathic (D3) solutions. You are a great companion to him just give him a bit of time. Best to you and him.

I so get this statement.. I am not chronic and pray I never become so, I have suffered a serious bout of depression from the "not knowing" when I will get hit as well as how many things I have had to stop doing when in cycle. Many times I have talked to my husband about not wanting to live like this or make him live like this. It is so easy to feel like a burden and in some degree at certain times we may be, however you seem to have a good grasp on the affection and love that your family has for you as well as the pain that would be inflicted on them if you left, my husband always tells me "don't leave me". I am located in the land of skittle farting unicorns (CA), and it is hard to get help unless you are compliant with many rules and regulations. Bottom line is that in the end there is always one moment worth living for. Maybe it will be a moment that you are not at a kip-10 and get to watch one more God given sunset, see a new baby be born into your family, hear your Mom or Dad laugh or just have a moment of brain peace. I wish I had more to offer other that being a friend but I don't . Hang in there!

I don't think it's off limits just I got a little political once and just got told not 2. So I was just putting it out there for ya that's al

Am I the only one with the heebijeebies

Cluster busters wants posts to stay cluster related... yes I know what you say is relevant. Please email me I will check for you

We will get in trouble on here for this conversation you can private message me if you like. Boscopiko@gmail.com

You have not listed an email address.. I looked at u your profile no mention of an email.... could be just not seeing.. bu Resigned if I checked but went to work at Pfizer as the board of directors.. no one should know but we do!

Why would you try and delete your account or your posts for that matter? I do not know about other members but I can say for myself that you sound like you have been to hell and back. Yes poverty sucks but look at how far you have come. The way you write is pretty conducive of a very sound, sane and obviously very intelligent individual (shoot I had to look up a bunch of the words you used). Why back away from a community of folks that understand pain? Maybe we do not know the magnitude of what you have gone through, then again I do not believe anyone on here needs to in order to try and lift you up, recognize your accomplishments and just be hear to listen? I have made an ass out of myself many times on here and so far I believe I've been forgiven (you did not make an ass of yourself). It is hard to not want to know your background as a private contractor (military I assume) but if that triggers issues for you then no big deal no one will go there. My mother was diagnosed with a shit ton of mental illnesses Schizophrenia, Bipolar-Manic Depressive disorder and many other things I can't remember. She spent her life in and out of the mental hospitals, the doctors in my opinion, never really had a clue what to do with her. She would tell me stories about being held down and injected in the bum with Haldol and all kinds of other juices (in the mental hospitals they call it being juiced). In the end she chose to take a walk on the freeway. You haven't done that even with the years of what you have gone through. I hope this message gets to you and am sorry you are having a hard time with your PC. I will look for an email on your account and email you this if it seems that you are still not able to view. Seems that you have made massive progress. Stick around for a while!

Wow! This was intense. Sounds like you really went through the roughest time EVER! I am so glad that you are doing better.

I've never tried the candy. Maybe it would taste better as a candy.. I'll have to give it a try.

Me too.. yuck but worth it if it helps..

Wow cool to know. I heard about the ginger just never knew you could get it in capsules..

Hello all, I'm not sure if I'm out of this everlasting gobstopper of a cycle (been getting one week off only) in between bangs. I am just curious if anyone else is constantly shadowing? I feel like I have constant pain on my rt temple (pressure, bulging veins, noticeable discomfort) even when I've had a 6 month break? Just wondering if anyone else deals with this?

You are spot on. I do best when in a tad bit of remission but am inspired by pain...

I love how you are able to relate most back to music cool skill. What you just posted on here is something I've (believe it or not) listened to with my pop. He is an old hippy with a mind like nothing else. He made me listen to Simon and Garfunkel, Dr. Hook, Fleetwood, Floyd, Darryl Hall and Oats, Mr. mercury and the list could go on for days. Yes I'll take all smiles. Your singing voice included...

Thank you so much! I tend to get sad when I can't seem to break away so I write. Would love to hear you sing!

Brain for sale Just slightly used Cash or best offer Trade-ins welcome too My cranium seems to hate me But it may like you? A Few malfunctions That must be disclosed It thunders and lightnings Loves to impose This brain that I have Is a drain It’s a drag It keeps me from sleeping Or enjoying life too But hey, who knows it might just like you?

This was a very good bit of information. I've been trying to wrap my head around the "circadian" "diurnal" meaning as associated with CH. Uff you smart people.. I am still so confused! I get the basics but??

Ok that was flippin funny.. I've been spiking all day and depressed because I thought I was done, (out of cycle) and that just made me laugh HARD..

I don't think it's odd anymore. I couldn't see from your profile where you are located but I am in (don't dis me) CA. I have had ash reining on my truck for months from the Caldor fire and have been stuck in cycle for 2 and a half months with one week off only in between attacks. I am newly diagnosed with CH and have only been surviving them for a bit over 2 + years now but this is the longest I've ever been stuck in a cycle (I usually get around 4 months off) longest duration off was almost 6 months. I've got 4 air purifiers running day and night and again today I'm spiking out.. Exactly one week off and the smoke blew into the valley today. I can say though that the D3 has made them manageable enough that I've been able to not use any abortive medicine. To start a cycle on the exact same day of the month is somewhat interesting however...

Odd.... I seriously had this song in my mind seconds after my post!

Love the term "anger sponge". I seriously need a stash of those!! I must admit that I have often thought of CH as some sort of cruel punishment for something I did wrong.. So I suppose the thought of possession is not far from that...Maybe our minds just want so badly to believe that somehow, someway it's something other than a neurological un-curable issue. I find that I prefer the worm in the nose theory I read on here while poking around...Who knows, maybe one day a cure will be just a shot away...