Split Personality

[Snowflake]

Is there anyone in here that has this condition? 

I can't help it but feel like sometimes, well more so recently that I am not in the drivers seat anymore. 

I am behaving strangely. I have moments like this where I can feel myself.

It feels like I'm hiding and typing this. But also that I'm being watched. 

People and everyone in my circle are noticing strange differences in my personality alot recently. 

I'm concerned.

Feels like something else is saying and doing things I don't mean and  the worst part is that I cannot stop this from happening. 

I'm scared. 

[Shaun brearley]

I'd say go and get some Professional Help my friend, 

[xBoss]

Are you in your late 20's? That is usually when stuff like schizophrenia starts to show up.

[Bejeeber]

Sorry to hear of this @Snowflake.

Of course @Shaun brearley has called attention to a best immediate course of action.

[BoscoPiko]

 Hey @Snowflake. Sorry to hear of the rough go at things! As for mental disorders, understand that they can manifest late in some unfortunate folks.. While late 20's is the most common, late teens are subject as well.  As @Bejeeber and @Shaun brearley have expressly stated it may be time to sit with a professional. No one should have to deal with feeling like they are not in control of their own feelings or as if the feelings they are having don't belong to them. Your mention of  not being in the "Driver's Seat", Folkes noticing a change in your behavior and the feeling of being watched are a bit of a red flag that something is out of balance (possibly a chemical imbalance) (Not uncommon). None of these things are incurable, but are best dealt with by professionals which we are not. We are all here, ready to help should you need.

[Snowflake]

7 hours ago, xBoss said:

Are you in your late 20's? That is usually when stuff like schizophrenia starts to show up.

I'm 45 years old. I was sexually abused between the ages of 10 and 14. Also physically bullied and beaten at school during my younger years. Ch started at 16. Had both hips replaced age 30 and 32. Due for intervention. 

We had 2 miscarriages upon the time I was going through hip surgery. 

Had ganglion block done 2019. 

Lost my brother in 2023 through cancer. Age 41. 

And I'm sitting here wondering if there is a spot to go fishing where my car is visible to get to the tank should I have to. 

 

[snafu]

4 hours ago, Snowflake said:

I'm 45 years old. I was sexually abused between the ages of 10 and 14. Also physically bullied and beaten at school during my younger years. Ch started at 16. Had both hips replaced age 30 and 32. Due for intervention. 

We had 2 miscarriages upon the time I was going through hip surgery. 

Had ganglion block done 2019. 

Lost my brother in 2023 through cancer. Age 41. 

And I'm sitting here wondering if there is a spot to go fishing where my car is visible to get to the tank should I have to. 

 

hey man, that's some rough stuff you have gone through in your life. you still came out on the other end so you know you're strong as hell, so don't give up hope for the better future.
as others have suggested i would go to a psychiatrist and get checked out/tested, just to make sure. meanwhile i strongly suggest you don't touch any psychedelics, they could make things a lot worse.

wishing you all the best and stay strong!