BluesFan85 Posted May 11, 2017 Share Posted May 11, 2017 Hi my name is Jacob I'm 31 been suffering since 14 and it completely ruined my life at 18. For the last 2 years I pretty much haven't been PF ever, maybe a few days at the longest. I was episodic for the whole time until the last 2 years and now I know I'm chronic. I've taken pretty much everything and nothing works. Since Sunday night I've been getting a hit about a 7-8 every time lasts about 45 minutes and then about an hour and a half later it starts again. So I've been getting like 12 hits a day now for the last 3 days and I'm just distraught. I just want to go to sleep and not wake up for the 1st time in a long time. I've been battling this for some time now, not as long as others but long enough. Usually I never feel like I want to you know kill myself but this continuous wave of attacks is pretty much cutting me down to nothing. Besides my parents I'm completely alone, have no money, friends, girlfriend, just nothing besides food and a roof over my head which I am thankful for though. The only treatment I've not tried is the mushroom route which I've decided I'm going to go. I just needed to vent right now. I haven't been able to hold a steady job since I was 18, I can't work. Everyday I just keep getting hit with attack after attack after attack. Anyways I know I'll make it I just so want to give up right now though but it just wouldn't be right I couldn't put my parents through that you know? I don't know I just want to say hi to others on here and just vent what I've been going through personally lately. Hopefully I can get a few hours right now with out an attack so I can clean myself up a bit cause I'm just looking like shit Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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