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  1. 11 months into the worst chronic episode in 21 years suffering, and all syhcidelicic substances have failed me badly! 5 meo dmt ,massive doses of shrooms, lsd, nn dmt ,. Nothing is flushing it out and worse off all it hasn't given me any respite in a year at kip 10, also flaring back up after an incomplete steroid program! . I'm in desperate straits here guys, I can't believe how I've lost this coatof armour, I have stuck to the regime and also given it big breaks in between dosing. I'm all out of options ! My doctor is saying surgery so I'm in a rush to solve this on all fronts before they want to start playing with my brain! Does anyone know of anyone else in my situation and if so any advice would be greatlyappreciated!
  2. If you live in the UK, mother nature is ready to bless us with liberty caps "mms "! Depending on the weather, end of August to the end of October! . That's the best remedy I could suggest for you ,as I know it has saved me and most others on site! Hope you find relief very soon Take care
  3. Sounds like you could have aura! A phenomenon mostly connectedto migraine sufferers. I also have cluster with aura, the aura came upon me in the last 5 years of my 20 years of cluster!
  4. I feel your frustration, I'm not up to date with this site and the topic of the "so called "Jesus shot as I'm sure there has been much debate on the subject. As for my experience with the nerve blocks, i am from the UK and was given the nerve blocks on a regular basis for at least 4 years, as we couldn't determine whether they worked for so long as I have to fly across to see him and receive them! "Given the fact that flying is a trigger "!5 years ago and I refused them on my last appointment, My specialist also agreed it was not happening for me, although he has had success with other patients! Take care
  5. Hello tpos, your second post sounds like you have AURA! Does your neck feel like it's getting stretched like pulling on a piece of meat? And do you feel your right arm going clumsy and weak! If so it definitely sounds like AURA. I have had that for past 5 years into my 19th year suffering! .give it a quick look up on the net as I could be wrong in your case! As for your first post! All i can say to that is ,Well done with treating yourself without diagnosis! As I see it, I've been given bad drugs that have destroyed my quality of life by doctors in the past 19 years and I discovered the antidote was growing in a field 5 minutes away from me !that was 3 years ago so if I were you, don't get trapped in the medicine mincer!. Take care and good luck
  6. Hi primrose, Really sorry to hear of your situation, you are not alone and I think you have found the the right site for advice ,as I and many others have found clusterbusters invaluable! . First I would like to suggest looking on YouTube and compare your attack to the footage of the poor folk having a cluster attack! As I am hoping you might not have cluster! Fingers crossed for you!
  7. cheers troupy,will hopefully have more feedback for you all very soon!
  8. hello kate , sorry for late reply,as i was explaining earlier,give it the full five days ,it sounds a long time but it works out like a 10 day regime!for example i had my first clearance dose last sunday night,i will repeat again tomorrow night,"friday night"!five full days kate,then repeat the next wednesday,witch would be five days for me!!i am pretty confident you will be okay!i feel for you badly and it is also so frustrating to hear of us clusterheads not having the access to the badly needed medicine !i live in british isles,so as you can imagine it is a massive task to obtain a class a substance!lucky for me i have a good stock of lsd,just wish i could help others,you are all so far away but the comfort this site provides me with great hope for you and us all .hope all goes well,take care
  9. hi kate, i found myself in the same situation last year,i also thought "no way the shrooms are not working "!a massive panic ,so i understand how you feel,at the time i did not no about the 5 day rule!as chfather has explained,you really need to give it that 5 days,i know it sounds a long time when in cluster but that might be your only way out of this hell at this point!hope all goes well kate ,!
  10. sounds like migraine,the reason i say that is the same as your reason!,this pain is on a scale i can not put into words how strong these things are!have you checked out any youtube vids of the attacks?i cant watch them they are horrid reminders but anyway mate lets just hope you do have bad migraines ,and hope you can find some answers on this site.also try mm treatment see if helps as i know any kind of headache is bad,especially migraine sufferers !.good luck
  11. hello guys,getting off to the dam shorty,as it will be a first with the truffles any advice would be a help, i need 3.5 dried shrooms to have any effect for me,!therefore how would i judge the amount? i am 4 hours in from taking 3.5 of the"terrance makenner strain" as i write this!just have to say that strain has been very kind to me,so would like some input on what strains i should go for.! thanks folks and pain free wishes to you all.
  12. hello andrew,feel for you mate, glad you discovered this site ,and mm treatment,!these fine folk from the USA have been great to me and my education of my personal battle with the beast! hope your doing okay ,give me a shout if need chat as i i am closer to home,"north west" as we probably share the same restrictions!!
  13. sorry id not get back earlier guys,the reason why i did continue to receive the blocks from my specialist is for many reasons,!the first one being any line of defence with this condition is another comfort.!for example ,when i blocked my receptors with mm last year it gave me some hope!,as i have not informed my specialist of my discovery of mm and lsd treatment !reason for this is i do not want to jeopardise my future treatment ! i have had to much of a bad experience with docs all my cluster life ,apart from my specialist who has been treating me for over 15 years !so i also do not question his results ! some might think why not say !but sure some do understand,! i will do my very best to get the results for us all ,i do not do web stuff,i am only on this site,"like my life private!" but will try my best to get these results, or you could probably get my specialist on the web," i would not know," "we are here for each other!"
  14. i have been getting the nerve blocks for just over 4 years!i have not had positive results,but me and my specialist are convinced the negative results are due to me to being in full cluster at the time the,reason for that is when i go into cluster i have to organise appointment and flight,therefore i would be at least 2 weeks into full cluster! although my specialist informs me that he has had great results with other patients! good luck with your studies,just let me know if can help with anymore input!
  15. hello trackle,just to let you know my dose of 480 mil twice daily" 960 daily" does not effect mm treatment, for me that is"! had a mm dose last night and my head is clear as a bell today!,i will repeat in five days! hope all goes well for you ,you are chatting to the right folks ! have faith in this site and you will be alright.!
  16. a lot closer than any other good folk on hear!,would be interested in chatting to clusterheads closer to home! as this is the only site i will use!do not do facebook or any other site because there full of sh..! thanks for reply guys!hope to chat soon.
  17. hi how are you doing ?was just having scan over old topics,thanks for the reply,take it your from blackpool?
  18. glad to hear there is good results with the shots,but unfortunate for me they did not work,started five years ago,my last time i was givin four shots in one go and still did nothing,although i do have to add that i was only able to travel to see my specialist and get the injection when i was 7 to 10 weeks into my cycle,therefore having the shots in full cluster,instead of the onset might have a negative effect!,i am just glad it works for others.
  19. i stopped taking them in capsule form 8 months ago,reason being they took longer to take effect and i did feel less of a reaction, but everyone is different,i now take mine putting no less than 2 grams in hot cup of tea,!really good advice from reichologist also! let us know how you are getting on,best wishes
  20. quality doc,!also explains more of the wild side i have been experiencing after taking my higher doses!top marks to you for getting the recognition from leigh,!my only concern is leigh was highlighting his own self indulgence rather than the most important health benefits!.i thank you and leigh,although he is my kind of guy, i really do not others will look upon that doc, or leigh to be a good promotion for are battle with the puplicity side of this subject!.albeit my hats of to you ,i guess we all have are own story with this disorder we suffer,i feel for you,and am so glad you discovered mm treatment,do you know tom hanks by anychance! reckon he could get message across!!ha,we wish aye!seriously nice one for that post,its a must watch,take care
  21. fully agree with chfather advice,!everyone is different,my dose changes almost every cycle,keep us informed best wishes
  22. you have to get the dried wait using scales.im just coming to as i post this from 2 grams dried!nothing heavy but everyone is different !i find i do not get a strong effect from lsd as i would mm,do not give up on the mm treatment,its just trial and error stage,i have been busting with mm for 2 years and am still learning.!
  23. SORRY to hear of your horrible situation,i was the same 6 months ago!when in a frantic hurry to get the beast out of my head i started taking more frequent doses of mm but found myself in a bad way !,the beast increased !!after going through 3 years wortth of mm "70"grams"!i had no choice but to find lsd,i had 3.5grams of mm left .so i give it 5 days"as hard as it is to wait i found it to be vital after going through 3 years worth i had no choice,i took the last of my mm,give it the 5 days and took 2 lsd tabs,another 5 days another 2 tabs,sorted me out,hope this helps in anyway,keep your chin up!
  24. Passing out of my cluster would be a big help!id seriously rather be put in a lions den!id rather fight lions! No point in trying to fight the cluster beast ,cluster beast always wins!so the thought of passing out would be welcome to me,!save me tripping out, but arwell thank mother nature aye!
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