tingeling Posted February 2, 2011 Share Posted February 2, 2011 Hi Had a longer period now where i can`t really do much with CH. It affects me many ways. I kept up with my routines. Eat, sleep, exercise and all that. Now i am at that point where i don`t care. I know i have to do it and i do it. But i don`t care about it. I don`t care about anything. Usually i find almost everything fun in one way or another. Very childish that way. Not now. Been baby sitting today. This person, she always feel sorry for herself. Always complaining about how tired she is can`t get enough sleep. Only around 7 h.... When she asked me if i could look after her child from 7.30 this morning, i answered yes i can. BUT, my daughter is sick, she`s home from school having a fever at 39. And i`m not on top either, but if it`s important i can do it. It`s up to you. She came 8.30, she was so tired this morning. I received a text later on, telling she was finished, but went home to relax. As her child was afraid of the O2, i told her after one h to come because i really needed to do something about it. She came, sat down and complained again. So tired, before she could sleep whenever she wanted, around 12 h, now only maybe nine or seven. And now the trolley was wet, standing under a roof on the terrace, then she couldn`t roll it trough my house. Well, you need to get out and roll it to the car i told her. She wanted me to do it, she didn`t want to around the house. After awhile of this ranting i just felt like i had to leave or something. When stuff like this irritates me, i don`t like to be me. I feel embarrassed complaining like i do now, but i just had to get it out. I feel depressed actually. Have no apetite, weight is going down, that stuff. And i don`t know what to do when i can`t use LSD, shrooms or seeds. If i just could stop feeling so sad. Sometimes i wonder why i always keep searching for new options. Now i have to do it for my daughter of course, it just feel so difficult sometimes. Thank you for being here Tingeling Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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