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Hello, Clusterheads. It's been a while since I've posted here, maybe 2 years, and I think my last post was a pretty negative one. Just wanted to check in, let everybody know I'm still alive and well. Hope you're all living the best lives you can I finally kept a journal throughout an entire cycle. I've tried this many times before, but always forgot to notate so many of them that I would just give up and say "maybe next cycle..." Last April I began a 2-month cycle, shortly after moving to a different state... so I didn't have access to my usual solution at first. Well now I do have my usual solution, and I'm feeling ready for the next cycle that has been threatening with shadows for 3 days. Last cycle I took 1.5g MM every 7 days for about a month... it didn't seem to do anything for me. I thought maybe I just hadn't been diligent enough in the past, that a more thorough rinse/repeat would do better for me, but unfortunately it doesn't appear to work for me. I'm eternally grateful for DMT being in my life, as I can't seem to Prevent the beast without Pharmaceutical interference (and the rabbit hole of secondary health problems that comes with it), but I sure can Abort any time that bastard comes out to play! I've settled into my new home pretty well, found a new job, been talking to a nice woman I met here, and overall I'm feeling pretty good about life right now (if we can just pretend for a moment that there's no election shenanigans going on). So to the Beast and the shadows that precede it, I say: "Bring it on. I'm ready for you!"

Mine is awesome... my other half. I'm 6 going on 7 years chronic... only a break for 2 weeks here and there If I'm lucky. O2... your friend. My spouse gets me a roll if toilet paper... pillows to sit up in the bed... sets up the couch in case I pace... I'm more of a rocker. Gets me a cold pack, some water my energy drink and leaves unless I try to communicate. This did not happen right away I had to tell him over and over there's nothing he could do. He knows now it'll be over... then it's back to regular life when I wander out whipped by the demon... but smiling with mascara running down my face... exhausted but smiling... best guy ever. You have to communicate with your partner what you need... or don't need and it'll get to be a norm... best of luck for your family...and pf days and nights

@xxx Thank you for this information to adjust the regimen. My change now will be: D3 - additional 50,000 for two days Turmeric - up from 2 pills to 3 Omega 3 - up from 2 to 3 pills Boron - adding 6 mg per day ( I have ordered this). Probiotic - ordered Zinc - ordered. Diet: I am stopping anything sugary to include foods with added sugar on the label, etc. Alcohol - two glasses of wine per day Water: 2.5 liters per day I have a lab coming up in a couple of weeks. I am using the specific products you listed. Thanks again. Let's see what happens as far as achieving a pain free level with these changes. Tsmith

Hhh, I know, we know, that you are not a wimp. This beast is straight from hell and deserves to be sent back!! I am delighted that you have people who know your tell and mention it to you! They are good friends to have around. The change in time might be from moving off of Daylight Savings perhaps. Everything seems off by an hour. It used to throw me for a loop. The bulb finally lit up and I realized that 8pm last week is 7pm this week. Are your D3 levels at say 85 or above? You need to be at that level to reap the benefit of the regimen. You can PM XXX for information on the current regimen. It has changed a bit since I began. Sometimes doing extra 'loading' doses can kick you into remission or reduction to a greater degree than where you are now. Are you using Melatonin or Benadryl? Both can also help. As for the welding system, buy a welding tank of O2. Become a hobbyist. That will be under $100.00. The Clustermask is about $30.00 and a regulator can be pretty cheap. Don't buy all at once if that is not possible, but start buying the pits and pieces. Make it your Christmas list or Holiday list? I had to piecemeal it too. But once I had all the pieces and it was running, I was in heaven! Yes, it took over a month to get it all bought, but I made it my priority and informed my husband. After Thanksgiving that year, I had my set-up. Life changed. Stay with us! We will try to work through this together, okay? Better days are coming, with all the new research going on finally, we may actually have something legal that REALLY works. Won't that be awesome?

I have looked into the set up... it's the affordability of everything unfortunately. But I still plod along. I am nocturnal as well...9 ...930 every night. This week earlier which is a little different but so is the weather... that effects my demon. Truly the most break I get is 2 weeks, f#@k.. Im 6 going on 7 years same schedule. I accept it. I know it. I live it I hate it. He is a keeper. Although I apologize terribly the whole time and I know it kills him. I get my levels checked now and then and just stay on the regimen because it helps. I just hate it... I'm being wimpy this cycle and I don't know why. I have tells lol I start winking... all my friends actually know before me because I wink at them it's a little funny... they will say " hey lady you better head home your going to fall out." I thank all if you so much for letting me vent thank you for letting me know I'm not alone wishing all pf days and nights!!!

.....30+ yrs here...hundreds of tanks used and thousands of hits aborted....and the ONLY negative was an occasional dry nose...

This is intensely personal but I think only you guys would understand. A few days ago I thought I was getting over a cluster that has been around for a month. Suddenly at 2 am, I went for 2 and half our session where I found myself both exhausted and restlessly pacing my living room like a crazy person, trying to keep quiet and not wake up our baby. Since they generally happen at night , My wife has rarely seen me go through such a bad cluster, and I despite me explaining it all the symptoms, the thoughts of pain freeness of death and what a relief that would be (which go away thankfully after the pain subsides) and showing her Clusterbusters and countless videos. I know there is nothing she can do, but I find myself getting angry also, at the situation and also with her not being able to truly understand. The result has been a horrible argument, made worse by my fear of another looming attack, by my anxiety and fear, which is also causing our relationship to suffer. How do your spouses help you ? Can they? Or are the attacks a solitary thing that only you can bear yourself because nobody who hasn't experienced it can understand. Thank you.