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Thank you all for your kind support and advice. Anxiety is a rocky ride with good days and dreadful days. Yesterday was not a good day for me. Just got to keep fighting. We're all fighting something.

Drewbie, I'm going to guess here that you are actually NOT "one biological flick of a switch away from full blown cCH", but of course I realize strong anxiety can make it convincingly feel like you are. Besides encouraging you to continue to rigorously adhere to the D3 regimen, I'll just repeat what I've reported in other threads in this forum, even though busting may not be advisable, and could present sourcing challenges for you: I found busting not only helped quash some entire CH cycles for me, but it long term quashed my CH related PTSD-like symptoms (basically anxiety/fear/dread). Ironically during some of my busting sessions, I experienced very heightened anxiety, so I now advocate a diazepam type tranquilizer while busting for anyone prone to anxiety (but not such medication for daily non-busting induced anxiety). And for a good while now there have been the reports like this about how A single dose of the psychedelic compound found in so-called magic mushrooms has eased anxiety and depression for a group of cancer patients for more than four years. Not that we are cancer patients. You mentioned how exceptionally physically active and fit you were prior to this difficult bout - since exercise is also really supposed to be good for relieving anxiety, I hope you can find a way to get back to it soon and start enjoying its benefits again. FWIW there's also this bit I found interesting about a new testosterone spray to treat anxiety disorders. All this said, if I was facing an unrelenting bout with imitrex effectiveness waning, I'd have to assume I'd find myself right back in the heavy dread zone. Sorry to hear your nerve block was delayed this time around, with things going full blown while waiting, but glad to hear that at least the nerve block has had some real effectiveness.

I don't have a lot of answers, but I do have a 4 year old daughter and I totally understand that feeling of not being enough of yourself to be a good parent. I had a CH attack come on while setting up to make slime with her and it broke my heart to send her to go watch tv instead while I endured...it felt like I was literally watching my life be stolen from me. I bought RC seeds on tranceplants.net a couple weeks ago - they haven't shipped yet it looks like but it wasn't very expensive so I felt ok about it as an experiment.

There's info in here: https://clusterbusters.org/forums/topic/5627-notes-about-welding-o2/ If your medical tanks are large ones ("M" size or larger) you won't need a new regulator. You can look at the links within that post to see if what you have is the same as what is recommended. Large medical tanks and ALL welding tanks use a CGA540 connection. No one here has reported any health issues/bad reactions from welding tanks, and a lot of people use them. Some people argue that since impurities will really mess up a welding job, welding O2 has to be at least as pure as medical.

I can relate to that hopeless feeling about the future, and I know what it’s like to feel like the rest of your life is just a juicy delicious looking meal that has now been poisoned and can no longer be enjoyed. I don’t have kids to worry about disappointing, but I did feel at some points that my close family and friends didn’t know that I was already dead, but just pretending until formal arrangements could be made. Busting changed all of this for me. And by busting, I don’t mean “I tried a couple 1.5 gram doses” to see how I felt. This is a lifestyle for me now, just like monitoring blood sugar and keeping insulin around is a lifestyle for diabetics. I plan and schedule around it, and it keeps me happy, healthy, and functioning. I have hemicrania continua, FYI. I think the healthy way to approach busting is to approach it as a tool you need to practice to learn to use properly. There is a clinical study in progress right now on the efficacy of psilocybin on cluster headache, so your concerns about it exacerbating it in the long run are probably unfounded. But if you are waiting for multiple peer reviewed studies that answer your exact questions, then you will probably be waiting a long time. Probably longer than any of us will be around, and I personally preferred to “carpe diem”. Because science will trudge on at its own pace, but we only get one chance at this life. All research I have found related to the physical effects of psilocybin use are positive. It has a very powerful anti inflammatory effect through its action on serotonin receptors. Is it an easy medication to manage? No. One Saturday out of the month, I spend a day relaxing at home, crazy as a loon. I stare at swirly colors on my VR screen and meditate and listen to music. Things get weird. Then it all goes back to normal and I go back to my life. But I can’t minimize the fact that these feelings can be panic inducing if someone is unprepared or in a stressful setting. Sometimes it’s really irritating to have to plan out “not being able to think or be rational” for a whole afternoon and it makes scheduling tough. But the headache always creeps back if I neglect to keep up with my dosing schedule. I don’t want to give you false hope by just saying “Try busting, it’s a miracle “. Because busting comes with it’s own difficulties and challenges, and it’s not an easy route either. But it did end up making my life worth keeping.