Juss, you are referring to a FB Group that is well known by many here. They are not 'us' and push/prefer Pharma for money reasons. You click, they make money. That group, is not any part of our group here and we were around for about a decade before they formed. And they will throw you out for mentioning MM.
Please, take a step back, reread some of our responses to your posts and think about it. We, as a group, have tried to understand you, help you, and support you.
For BPD, Dialectical Behavior Therapy has proven highly effective. It was developed for BPD. My child, with this disorder, has had only one meltdown in 8 months since she finished BPD Therapy. Normally, she would have had at minimum 10-12 meltdowns. Her IQ, is above 150. As I suspect yours is. Which makes the disorder even more difficult. I have seen it for decades now. It is horrid. My heart hurts for you.
I wish you health and happiness. I wish you peace. I know that peace might be the most difficult thing to attain.
For your posts on the board, please be kind and positive, or just scroll on by the post.
spiny